For now

No job hunting for me today. Instead. Volunteering. eep! Well I've got months until I can start working properly at signing so you know.

Plus this gives me loads of experience and if I'm good enough, who knows, I might get some paid work out of it, haha that's the plan anyway.

Really, its a good way of putting off doing anything career related, but shhhh :) That will keep the parents happy for sure...ooops!

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I've had the most immense day :D
kittens, seeing friends, spending time with matt, putting up the new bunny hutch for when toby arrives, eeep!, walking the dog around the park, the most delicious meal ever is now cooking in the oven, how brilliant hehehehehe. :D
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Hum, well I'm getting over Bailey, slowly but surely. I've not cried about him since Matt and I said goodbye to him on Sunday.

We bought a new bunny, who we haven't really named yet. We said Nemo because she has a dodgy leg, but no-one likes it, so she is called lump/bunnymunch haha. She is adorable, totally different to Bailey, a lot slower moving but she has bitten me twice which is rather moo.

Anyways, that's all for now really.

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Bailey died :'(
Totally devastated.
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Sent a pretty ultimatum to the University. I assume I will quit in the morning time. Euf.
I am so hungry, and I need to go and get my eyesbrows done. Gonna be an exciting day for sure.

I am so poor now I owe Dad muchos money. Gah gah. Gah gah.
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Woop.
I have numerous different job offers and things to be getting on with, I'm gonna have to accept some of them soon, but eeep.

Everyone thinks that I need to get a degree regardless and so I'm going to investigate some form of social care stuff, exciting. Don't really wanna go to Uni. Don't know if I've totally missed the UCAS dealine for this year, will take a look see.

However this morning the doctor confirmed the diagnosis from Manchester and so now I need to begin a whole new lifestyle, no dairy etc because I apparently have an intolerance, moooo! No cheese, no chocolate, no nothing, my life will be so rubbish! Going 3 weeks was one thing, but going the rest of my life is completely different.

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Wish me luck.
Today I am going to tell my parents that I am leaving University and that I am going to pursue my signing.
Wish me luck!!
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So today I am going to try and find alternatives to sticking to my degree. Lets see how that goes, I'm hoping its not too difficult but equally if it is then I shall have to continue with my dgeree. Bag Humbug.

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I'm going to try and go the day without painkillers, so far I've been alright, but I've only been awake for 2 hours so we shall see.

Bailey and I shall cuddle up on the sofa and watch rubbish on tv because we are just THAT cool :D

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So I have my operation in the morning.
Oh crap.
Im terrified.
Apparently I will be in lots of pain afterwards and have to take tablets, what joy. I am not impressed, I really really hate tablets :'(

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I have my operation on Friday, eep. How immense, except its surgery so you know its not that great, but oh well, I don't know.

I do at least get to take Bailey to the vets in the morning so it doesn't affect my plans too much, yay. And I will have the whole weekend to recover and all that sort of stuff.

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So last night I got a death threat from the girl who made my life hell from the previous flat.

The police are involved.

Very scary.

Sad face :'(

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So, apparently I'm not diabetic, although I went to the hospital today and got blood tests done, joy. I think I'm going to go to another doctor when I go home, see if they can help at all, you know? Ah well, we shall see.

I literally cannot wait to go home, I want to sleep and rest, see Bailey and the kittens and everyone. Hope that the relaxation will help me to feel better :(

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So, basically I've been insanely ill lately and had 2 full weeks off of University already. I've been to the doctors about a million times and they've filled me full of antibiotics but nothing's working :S
So I was given a referral to a specialist and he told me that I have an incurable condition and need surgery asap. So I'm going home on Thursday and probably dropping out of uni, which is monumentally shit.

Well I've been trying to take this all in, and been crying...well...a lot and its not really helped.

But then, earlier, Mum called and told me that she thinks I have diabetes, telling that to a hyperchondriac was not a clever thing for her to do, but then I looked up all the symtoms and well...I have them all and it completely explains why I've been ill. I'm getting tested tomorrow at 8am. Then I have a full abdominal ultrasound scan at 1:20, and then another consultation on Thursday at 7pm, and then Dad will take me home, should be good. Although, you know...not.

I hate bad news, and this is not cool. I blatently have something wrong with me, gah gah gah.

Plus, my leg really hurts. It feels numb and heavy and weird, has done for a few days now. According to the diabetics website you should never ignore leg pain, but I am ignoring this and hoping to god that its okay :S If I have to lose my leg, than you can say I told you so, because well, I should probably get it seen to asap.

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I've not written in almost a year, eeep, but I've not really had any reason too, everyone else had stopped writing and so I figured there was no reason to vent stuff online. Anyways there are lots of new things going on, since last year, lets make a list...

1. Dad had a new baby.
2. Mum and Colin split up.
3. I found the guy I hope to spend the rest of my life with.
4. I started University.
5. I started eating chocolate again.
6. I moved out.

well that's really all the main stuff. let's go chronologically :D

1. Alexander James Scott was born on 19th December 2008 at 11am(ish). He is adorable. Means I get so much less time with Dad which is rather annoying, but equally he's letting me help out every now and again so at least I'm bonding with my little brother. He is getting really big really fast, so seeing him only once every few months is pretty damn annoying I'll be honest with you! But so far its tolerable, I'm glad its a boy, I've wanted a baby brother since I was about 5, so that's really cool :)

2. Glad about this one obviously. Basically he's more of a knob than any of us every really thought he was, he cleaned out Mum's bank account, raided the house of all their wedding gifts including £1,000 worth of vouchers which was rude. Hopefully he won't come back, but mum's a bit of a soft touch so I don't hold out much hope for that one.

3. More on him later :) :)

4. University was moo. Got bullied by this horrible racist girl who made my life living hell for three months, had my door spat on, was called a chinky, and had to listen to her insult my family, my boyfriend and me, while the rest of my flat just sat there doing fuck all. Bastards. I moved out of there though, and am now living accross the hall with people I get on with much better. Shame I had such a crap first semester but there's nothing I can do about that, so I'm moving on. Go me.

5.This was a shock, over 3 years I went without it, but then I was at Lottie's one evening and everyone was eating Galaxy and I thought 'why not?' so I did. And now I'm eating more than ever, its just as unsatisfying as I remember, but I like eating so you know.

6. June 08, Colin moved in, my mother was being a cow. I moved out. :D I went to live with Matt (that's the boyfriend) and loved it. We got on so so well, and it was really lovely to wake up with someone every morning. Took us less than a week to say I love you, and I really meant it. It's scary, but in a good way. We lived together for 3 months, then I went to uni, now every time I go home I live there, and if I'm just back for a weekend I go and visit his mum and his dad, I get on rather well with them both so its nice to spend time with them, I always say I'll only go for an hour or so, but I'm yet to get home any earlier than 12:30am, and I usually go out at 6pm, so yeah, ha.

But back to 3, YAY :D he's really lovely, makes me happier than anything, being apart is horrible and I'm really bad at keeping my crazy toned down, so I usually cause fights and things, I'm a silly bean. He treats me so nicely though :) really caring, really sweet, got an immense sense of humour, I really feel like I could marry him, being together forever doesn't scare me, we talk about it a lot, and its fun :) I just feel complete around him, like something was missing and it was him. That sounds so cheesy I know, but that's how it feels. I bet I've jynxed it now, but *touch wood* & *fingers crossed*.

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hope you're all well,


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